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12:37 pm: my farewell...
Okay kids,

So, i have decided to abondon my lj. I am tired of all the gissipness and problems that it starts. And i think i would rather just write in my real journal. So, from now on i will not be reading your lj's but i still wantto hear about all of your lives so call me or send me emails about your amzing lives. I love you all so much... stay true to who you are :)I will be trying alot harder to just talk to everyone instead of write about them and if you really care to see the other crap you can ask to see my real journal... but htat may or may not happen. I love you all!
Love Always,
Jen

09:25 pm: i heart Liesl
Popsicles: purple and orange, The Little Mermaid, Oprah Winflea, St. Marks, American Girls, Boyds Bears, Christmas Tree farm, Melting Pot,Peanut Butter Balls, Christmas Eve, New Years Eve dinner, New Years Day dinner, Cream Puff Cake, BOO, Napoleon Dynamite & Garden State, Gilmore Girls, Breckenridge, Park City, Key West, Backpacking (cough cough) through Europe.... 14 years and still goin! Heck Yes! ( oh i forgot... 2 pretty houses next door to each other separated by a white picket fence with a doggie door)

Happy New Year everybody! its gonna be a great 2005!

This is a sweet verse i found here on Liesl's desk... i like it: "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you force trials of many kinds, because you know the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perserverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
James 1:2-4

11:10 am: its been a while!
Wow! its been forever since i wrote in this thing. Well here it goes....

Christmas break has been lots of fun but absolutely cray at the same time. The studio was open until the 22nd so i was busy and exhausted until then. Thursday was spent shopping, baking and wrapping with my mom. Friday (christmas eve) was a massive day of baking and lounging around the house. Then it was CHRISTMAS! Hurray! We all slept in and then opened presents. My brother got me this huge UCF rug! how fun! i got tons of clothes and some dance stuff, a new purse with bath and body works stuff, a sewing kit from grandma. It was fun. Everyone came over for dinner but for some reason i was really tired and i slept from 3ish to about 6 then i ate dinner and me and my momma watched Raising Helen. But i was absolutely freezing! i had sweatpants, a sweatshirt and 2 big blankets on me and i was still shivering. i proceeded to sleep yet again (uh... whats wrong with me??) Right, so to put it in a nutshell i was sick on christmas once again. I had a fever that night and i was sick to my stomach until yesterday. ew! today is the first day i have been up and around. Tomrrow i have an appointment with my doctor to look over my blood work b/c my mom thinks i may be anemic or something.

So other than all the tired sicky stuff... break has been fun. I wish i couldve seen the gang more :( i know i will hook up with you guys soon! okay well i am gonna go tr to eat something. Have a great rest of break everyone!!

10:13 pm: hum dee dum...
So break is totally rocking! Heck Yes! its nice to just be home. I am sooo tired though! Since coming home on Wednesday night so much has happened... i shall fill you in:
Wednesday night: came home from work cleaned some stuff out of my room to make room for all the crap i brought home then realized that i totally left my wonderful feather pillow at my apartment... grrrrrr...

Thursday: slept till noon (YAY! havent done that in a while) and just kinda bummed around until i had to go pick up miss emily from school and go to work. Ballet rocks my face! then i came home and slept a wonderful long sleep...

Friday: slept in again YAY! then i went to the 'wood to visit everyone only to realize that Mrs. Sterling doesnt work on Fridays grr.. o well i am sure i will see her at some point over the break. Saw Tee for the first time in forever... that girl is so bad at keeping in touch! then i went to Mickeys Very Merry Christmas Party w/ Tina and Family and her friend Jess' family. SOOO much fun! i <3 Disney!

Saturday: after a nice 4 1/2 hours of sleep i went to the Apopka Christmas Parade... good times! The kids did great and i was really impressed with how patient they were while we were setting everything up. Got a "job offer" to do free-alnce photography for the Apopka Chief which is the town paper, sooo excited about that. After the parade My mom and i (complete in matching outfits that all of our staff wore in the parade)went to the mall to catch up on some christmas shopping. My mom realized today that we were planning on driving to colorado for spring break instead of flying... haha i thought she gave birht to a giraffe! she wouldnt budge so after my initial anger, sadness, and definate dissappointment.. my cleverness kicked in. I told her that i really wanted to snowboard this year and there are two ways i can go: 1) drive with my friends from school or 2)fly with Liesl and company whily taking a week off school (genius i know!) so we talked to my dad presenting option 1 first and letting him lecture about his driving experiences when i was little then we enlightened him with option 2 and he totally went for it! so even though i dont get to go with all my friends from school
:( i still get to go with my other family to Breckenridge which will be absolutely amazing! yay!! :)


Today: sleep was beautiful... it is cold... life is good! oh and by the way... i <3 baking!

This week= craziness! holiday parties at the studio begin thursday and i know it sounds like fun but its absolutely crazy! Friday is Chris' FAA graduation, Saturday babysitting for 2 girls from the studio (should be a breeze- they are 9 and 12) and on Sunday is our staff christmas party (for which i dont have a date and my mom doesnt quite like that lol) and monday through wed. are more holiday parties!! ahh! craziness! Gang: just let me know what is happening and i will do my best to be there! okay well, i am gonna go relax for a while- Have a great holiday everyone! leave some christmas comments for me! yay!

11:30 am: looked like fun

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12:37 am: clarification...
Alrighty kids...
I just took a nice long relaxing bath. So i was sitting there thinking about my last entry and i feel like i need to clarify: that wasnt towards anyone in was just my thoughts on drinking and stuff. I probably shouldnt have said anything and i am sorry if i offended anyone. Sometimes i forget what needs to go in my "just for me" journal and my live journal. Basically its dislike of the game, not the players. SOrry kids if that one came out a little harsh. I love you all!
Love,
Jen

10:53 pm: hmm...
WARNING: this may offend some of you and i am sorry if it does. Just know that i gave you fair warning.

So, close your eyes and think about college... okay well i am sure you didnt actually close your eyes but think about college anyways... first thing that comes to your head, what is it? Hard work (check), growing up (check), PARTY (for somethis is a check) <-- that one is the one i am unsure about. Everyone is either at a party or having one on this fine saturday night and by my own choice i am sitting here writing in my lj. Am i loser? Did i miss the "screw everyone else lets go have a good time" phase of my life. Casual dating totally didnt even come near my direction i definately skipped that one. Is it qrong if im not a partyer? I dont like drinking or being near to drunk or being near people who are drunk. Im sorry kids but for me it is a huge waste of time money and brain cells. I like knowing what i did the last night. I like knowing that i am loved by my friends for who i really am not who i act like when i drink. I love not being dependant on something and i love dealing with stuff and not running away. Why do i feel like a major loner when i know i am doing the right thing by staying home, safe, out of trouble.
My Gang: I miss you all soso much!I wish we were all at the same school to help eath other through all this college crap. for now i will just stay on course and do what it is i came here for. Not to party but to become something. I will see you all next week
My new FCA friends (and future roomies maybe!!) Thanks for adopting me in! lol... great times, "I love smiling... smiling is my favorite!" Totally loving all the good times we have together!!
Alright kids so here is the deal... i dont drink for the sake of getting drunk. Maybe its b/c i grew up with a glass of wine in my hand. Its not that great you guys!!!! I love you but i had to get that one out...


On a better note i had major girl time at the mall this afternoon then Kristin and I went to see "A Chorus Line" tonight on campus. they did a great job. in my head i was tearing apart the dancing but they still did awesome. Okay i am gonna go find a project or read a new book or soemthing...
Well, see ya later

10:07 am: grr...

i registered for classes today and since i am one of the last appointments all the classes i wanted were taken! how messed up is that?? granted some of them i couldve taken but that wouldve meant a monday class which means no dance class and no extra large paycheck. so now i have only t/th and one internet class (im hoping to change that one). I am taking Anthropology, Human Species, English (1102) and American Natl Government (<--- YUCK!) but i guess i will survive... there was no more history classes that i could take :( and religions is mwf during my monday ballet class... major bummer! oh well only 3 more gen ed classes and i plan on kiling them over the summer...
as for now, i have a huge astronomy test tomorrow that i must get an A on... grrr to astronomy. adios amigos....

11:57 pm: a plethera of thoughts
whew... its been a fun day.

It started off with yoga which rocked (except for the almost unbearable pain in my knee...) i ttok it easy so it was ok i guess. It hurts really bad right now. After yoga I hung out with Alex, Liz, Brent, Kristin and Ricky's bro Brandon who was visiting this weekend. I cut brents hair... hahaha... still looks the same to me but whatev...=P Then i went to the Oveido Mall with Kristin, Liz and Brent. we had dinner and lots of breadsticks at Fazolis and we walked around for a while before we went to see Ray (the movie about ray charles). all i have to say about that movie is wow! it was really great (nice call Kara) Jamie Foxx did an amazing job. what a great movie.
Tomorrow our girls go to their first dance convention. i am so nervous for them, i don tthink they have a clue what they are in for. but i know that they will love it. I am going down there at 8:30 in the morning AHHH!
Ive been really pondering my whole boyfriend situation (or lack thereof) lately. Im not pushing for anything but does anyone else ever just feel lonely? or want a hug? I never feel unloved or depressed (an upside of my job) but sometimes just lonely... i think the lord is preparing me for something...
I have also resolved that i will never be able to do anything really special here. I could be on dance team or softball or some other sport but no, i gt to work 4 days a week which eliminates all hope of any of that. I could make this dance team with my eyes closed but my parents didnt give Chris any help so they wont help me. Its impossible to be a student athlete when your parents dont back you up. It just makes me so mad that i know i could do something really great but in reality it will never happen...

04:26 pm: yay!
I know its been a while since ive updated but not much has changed... im still single of course, getting poorer by the hour you know... the norm but its all good! wanna know why? good... here it is...

BUSH IS PRESIDENT FOR 4 MORE YEARS! HECK YES HE IS! OUR COUNTRY WILL NOT BURN IN FLAMES... well atleast not in the next 4 years it wont :)

reason #2
IM GOING TO SEE SWITCHFOOT TONIGHT! me and kristin made shirts... hers is black and it says living is simple and mine is yellow and brown (and inside out) and it says Turn Everything Over... for those who dont know those are the names of switchfoot songs that we like woop!

reason #3
my apartment is clean! hurray! i cleaned today and it made me happy

reason #4
ITS HOMECOMING WEEK!!! i have to miss spirit splash :( but i went to the carnival with Tina, Lilly and a bunchof FCA people... dont ask me their names im still learning but nonetheless they are still pretty cool kids... anywho it was really fun and i rode the bik round swingy thing... tres cool! and on Fri. night we are going to build the FCA float for the parade and then saturday is the homecoming parade on Church St. and then the football game! i am so stoked... my first football game (what a bum huh?)YAY!!!!!!!!

reason #5
i think i am going to UF next thursday and i will get to see Liesl!!! i miss her sooooo much!!!! and i get to see the boys!! YAY!! i miss them sosososo much also! i am convinced that they are all aliens from another planet b/c there are no boys like them here.

reason #6
going to a dance convention nest weekend

reason #7
SWITCHFOOOOOOOOOTTTT!!!!

reason #8
im down with the G.W.

reason #9
SWITCHFOOT TONIGHT!

reason #10
... oops... out of time going to get ready for SWITCHFOOT!

12:32 am: friends
Cara came to see me tonight!!!! YAY!! it was so fun! I mis syou gang!
So, i rushed home from work and jumped in the shower (the fastest shower i have ever taken in my life) and then Lilly and Tina came over. and CaChilders came over!!! and Amy and Rusty and Kristin and Simone were all here and it was soo fun. Simone made us Crepes which were totally AWESOME!! yummy yummy yummy!
Then Me, Childa, Lilly and Tina went to FCA and Mike and Vince came too. and after that it was raining to Cara got a driving tour of UCF at night lol and then we went ot friendly's with all the FCA people which is always awesome. and Dan (Rex) tried to show some people a snowboarding jump and broke a light b/c he hit his head on it. it was sooooo funny! i met lots of people- Kristen, Rebecca, Dan, Mike, Justin, Dan, Eric, and a bunch more lol... it was lots of fun. After our massively huge and wonderful hotfudge, caramel, brownie sunday from Friendly's. Cara came back here and i hooked her up with some new music for the trip home (Everyday Sunday~ Anthems for the Imperfect and Ryan Cabrera~ Take It All Away) Then Childa had to leave... tear... so sad! i love you childers!!!!!
Anywho the rest of this week will be fun! i turn in my art show entry on Fri. i will post it as soon as i know how... and homecoming game is friday night! i get to help Julie and hopefully Hanban and Kelly surprise our boys! YAY!!!!!i miss all you past orangewoodians and gang members soooooooooooo much! and i love all my new wonderfull friends too!!!!

11:48 pm: la dee da
Havent updated in while huh?? oh well... i am makin up for it now.
I heart Everyday Sunday... just thought everyone should know.

Umm.... this weekend was awesome. We went to the Annunciation Festival on Sat. and i saw the kids from Showtime and some of my old friends from Xtreme perform. Liz, K, Simone and Jacquee (Simones little sis) were with me. I felt bad for them... its pretty boring to sit and watch little kids who you have no connection to dance for an hour or so. Props to you girls for makin it! then we went to the Alt. Mall for some shopping. I hit up Aero and got some sweaters to wear this weekend in NYC!!!
yes thats right, NYC. its the weekend of the costume show so i am stoked to go and check all of that out. I love the costume show... i cant wait to check out the new tap shoes!! woot! and guess whos cousin is Homecomign queen??? MINE! woohoo! way to go Alli! cant wait to see her this weekend....
anywho... ah yes, so we went to this party on Sat. night. i didnt really want to go in the first place but i went anyways dont know why. I ended up being the driver again, which is cool b/c i didnt want to get drunk but it gets old after a while. I would rather cart people around than have them go with someone whos been drinkin...
So Sunday we slept in and i worked on my comp. project for most of the day then it wouldnt work... but i finally got it to work about 2 hrs. ago!! yay! you can go to my site and check it out:
http://pegasus.cc.ucf.edu/~je851415
yes my very own site! so exiting i think i am gonna try to post osme photography stuff on it soon! yay!
Then we went to climbing club... looks liek that will work out. and we left early for OCM. I love OCM! it was awesome this week. The music is so perfect. We sang so much and yet i wanted to sing some more! then we had this discussion that was just amazing. and i told everyone about the "poop" shirts they were selling at Last Wave b/c that was hilarious- they were shirts that said "PooP" and when someone says why do you have poop on your shirt? youa re supposed to say that you dont believe that cursing is right and that you are a christian so you substitute "poop" for surse words (of course you would say it more eloquently than that)
but anywho... yah i heart OCM... umm... tomorrow is FCA loving that as well...
tryin to find somewhere with dance classes but i am either working or somewhere else during the classes i have found so w/e... i will figure it out... i must go to wal mart this week! ahh!!
umm.. i think thats about it.. i am almost broke... in nee of $$ if you care to support the Jen is a poor college student fund =P and i am off... have a wonderful beautious night everyone!

12:29 am: THE BEST NIGHT EVER!
Okay so tonight i went to the Last Wave w/ Kristin and Liz. wow, that is an awesome place! Its a Christian concert hall/club... theres a game type area w/ pool, foozball, airhockey, etc. and there are little lounges and food and stuff... i think i will be spending alot of time there! i wish i knew about it in High School! geez... anywho... we say Everyday Sunday, Kids in the Way and the Blood Violets.
The Blood Violets opened. they are a knew band but i really enjoyed them. I bought a t-shirt and they said that if we emailed they would love to come play at UCF!! WOOT! then Kids in the Way came on. I dont really know alot of their stuff but they put on a really good show... and the guitarist was hott! so they totally rocked... then after them Everyday Sunday (who was my main reason for going) came and they totally blew me away! they put on an awesomely wonderful, show... my legs are so tired!!! i was shouting every word i knew and wow... yah they rocked! i bought one of their t-shirts...
after Everyday Sunday the audience chanted "one more song" haha so they came back on to play one more... then we went to buy all our stuff and all the bands eventually made their way out there and they were signing autographs and such. I thought it was really cool that in b/t signing autographs they were working at the merchandise tables and such. It must be rough being a band on the road... especially a Christian band.
When we left we went to Cold Stone and i had yummy cake batter ice cream w/ cookie dough! and then we took Liz home and now me and K will watch Aladdin on DVD for the first time!! this was by far one of the best nights since i have been here!! i heart you girls!!!

11:03 pm: wow...
Okay so this weekend was fun!

On Friday nigth Travis took me and Simone to meet some of his friends from Campus Crusade. It was soo much fun. They are really neat people. I miss being around people who can just do nothing or sit around and play a board game and still have fun. It was like hanging out with the gang. There was no drinking or anything like that. It was just fun. Like hs with the gang.
Then on Saturday i went to the beach w/ Travis, Wes, and Tim. good times. I took them to Flagler Ave. in New Smyrna but there is no more beach there. It is eroded... my beach is gone. it is sooo sad! we had to go down towards the Jedis more to find maybe 5 feet of sand to lay out in. sniffle sniffle... but it was still a good time and i have the sunburn to prove it =P
Then i came home and went to babysit... yah... an experience in itself... lets just say that little 2 1/2 yr old emily has a weak stomach and she pukes when she cries... and she wasnt happy about going to bed... so she proceeded to puke all over herself... i managed to avoid the eruption of her stomach... so i got her cleaned up and she started to watch Scooby Doo again and i went a cleaned up her room where this happened... so i came back into the living rooma nd she looks at me with a very solemn face and says "i spilled myself"... okay, that just makes it all better how cute huh?! what an intellectual 2 1/2 yr old!
Sunday i couldnt go to yoga b/c i lost my ID but it was all good, i had a lazy day then we watched some of Brent's movies which were really good by the way. and we went to OCM... which is Jamies Harts college version of youth group. it was amazing. i love God and i love worshipping Him!! i am really at peace with my faith right now. and on Tues. i am going to FCA which i am stoked about and i met some new people that climb. so right now life is good!
And... i have decided that the Lord will guide my relationships and there is a reason why i dont have one right now. When the time is right i know He wil bring the right guy along and all will be fine...
I love when i have faith like this... i just feel revived for some reason... i dont relaly know why...

12:46 am: So tonight Brady, Bart and Liz all cam eover to study for Sociology which wen tpretty well. they al left like 45 min. ago then me K and Simone pigged out on triscuit nachos and M&Ms for some odd reason. I was in my room and i went to make sure K wasnt being all ADD like normal lol and i found the funniest thing ever...
Her room is always really hot so she took the little air vent thingy down and now there is just a big air conditioning hole in her wall which goes through to my room lol. and she was standing on the chair jumping up and down saying "jens room" <> (jumps again) "jens room" etc etc... LOL i was literally rolling on the floor i think i may have come close to peeing in my pants! haha... i heart you K!!!!!!!

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10:06 pm: Hey Kids!

Well i have survived the 4th hurricane this season! wahoo! geez... this is crazy!

Anywho we had a good time playing in the hurricane on sunday! we found a shopping cart and ran around and such. good times.

Umm... other than that, not too much else going on. We got a fish! he is the prettiest beta fish around. His name is Al-coholic (Al for short) and he lives in an old Baccardi Razz bottle mwahaha! we heart Al!
In the guy department, nothing much is happening. All the guys i meet are man hoars or deuschbags so i am basically swrewed... i dont htink i will ever find the right guy but w/e...
I must have to say that my roommates are absolutely the most awesome people ever! i heart you girls! Simone, thanks for havin my back last night... he is an ass and if his laundry was that important he must be gay or something. Thanks for keepin me safe from the manhoar... i heart you!
I am think about comin to UF in the next few weeks... maybe on saturday? will anyone be around then... i will probably just come for the day b/c i havent anywhere to stay and i am sure people will be driving up there with me so yah... get back to me and let me know all of your wekend plans...
Love you all!
Jen

12:11 am: YAY!
okay so who had a great day today??? ME! ahh! i went to work took some amazing pics for that art exhibition... whoot whoot it was fun i used the company girls and molly ( <--- yeahya!!) as "models" twas a good time good time... anywho...
other than that, we had an amazing pointe and ballet class! wow! Kim was subbing b/c katie is sick and she did an amazing job! i feel like i got such an amazing workout! my pointe shoes are finally starting to break in and i feel good on pointe... side note... did a double pirouette on pointe today! woohoo! and then in ballet we just had sooo much fun! we did nothing traditional. we did all our barre work in center w/ barefeet. i will not be able to walk at all tomorrow but its all good b/c i had a blast. And we listened to Ashlee Simpson (eh) Gavin Degraw (yeahya!) and John Mayer (uh huh) the entire time. We did this combo accross the floor to Georgia (2 on room for squares) and it just mad eme happy so i kept on doin it with Molly and Kim for like 20 min. I have got to find somewhere to dance down here. that was just too much fun! yay!

11:12 pm: Okay kids... if you want to see some great college pics of yours truly go to this site...

http://photobucket.com/albums/v352/simoneisawesome/COLLEGE/

yay!

02:15 pm: sorry the mood on my last entry was wrong so i am rovoking it... this is my real mood... enjoy!

02:09 pm: damn rain! and the many benefits of Ramen Noodles :)
okay so i left sociology today with liz and it was pouring so we decided we would go to the union and get some coffee with travis despite the sudden downpour... we shared my umbrella so we only got wet on one side of each of us lol... so that was hilarious! then after coffee and getting our art exhibition info... yes thats right i am entering some photography!! woohoo be proud... we went to our clases in between storms. Now i think that todays rain was some secial kind of water b/c i am still wet from our first little adventure. so as i shivered my way through speech, which was suprisingly interesting b/c of the sole fact that Mrs. Workman gave the lecture and she is oh so awesome!, i then proceeded to get on the bus where the ac dripped on me for 3 stops until i could move. so now i am at home still havent shanged, stupid i know, but i am sitting here eating my Ramen noodles lol to help with my freezing cold body temp!
and... i have come to the realization that ramen noodles really arent half bad... especially when you are freezing.. adios